insecure

Dua tiga malam ni tidur tak lena. nk dtg bulan lagi kut. sejak pakai alat ni, period dtg sesuka hati je, lama lak tuh. tensen. nak buang, kang tersangkut. bukan taknak tapi byk mende nk pk. haniff pun ada bunyi2 dah nk baby satu lagi. teringin boy tapi bukan kuasa kita. just have to keep on trying.maybe balik dari malaysia nanti think harder.
a friend is coming over to stay for holiday. we never had anybody come around from malaysia, part of family so it is an honor. i have this sense of insecurity. extremelly dangerous! very jealousy but i am not a control freak ( i think...) so few days ago aku mimpi yg bukan2. infidelity... to be honest, dari zaman bujang tak habis2. dari bf,tunang..now husband. never say never... i doubt haniff will do it but it just felt so strong and i always have this huntch. whn she comes, at one point i will leave her in the hse coz i have to send iman to swimming class. skali dlm fb dia komen abt haniff... i feel uncomfortable. menguatkan lagi. she has a husband and they have been having a bit of family issues. syaitan nih mmg suka pecah beraikan manusia. i need some strength, kekuatan keimanan. bila dtg dari family yg jantan suka cari betina, kepercayaan tuh susah skit. i hope it is just syaitan playing with my mind.

Ya.Allah, berila diriku kekuatan keimanan dan ketakwaan.... amin.