today

gosh, i really dun know whr to start tidying up the house. dila is coming soon and the guest room is not even close to be ready at all. haniff is getting stressed out all the time. work loads, house not finish decorated. he started something but didn't finish hehehe tht is sooo him. the kitchen,bathroom, hall and now the guest room. i am always not well. headache and always feeling i am doing everything so fast. i need to slow down. calm myself b4 i collapse. so many times the girls saw me fell. the doctor cldn't find anything wrong with me but there must be something. maybe disagree with my body system. here, ppl know all sort of medical terms. have to try to learn as well. malasnya sbb sumer nama scientific sgt. nama melayu kan senang. sakit urat, terpeleot,tergelecoh hehehe

g anto iman tadi, ada la kawan tanya baru potong rambut iman. kita pun jwb la ye, naper? dia suka rupanya. dia ckp ngan laki dia anak dia pun suka rambut gitu so.... i am watching this space! tak tahu la tak suka kalu ada org nk copy2 nih. sbb hari2 sekolah dia akan tanya esok iman pakai baju apa, stoking ker tights hehehe bless her. she is nice but kekadang tu rimas :-p
ada kawan sorang tuh copy something jugak, in the end bila kita tanya, nk marah, boleh?

every morning i make sure i call mummy. tanya khabar dia. daddy normally call kat tghari skit sbb time tu tak bz. pagi2 susah skit sbb kalu sembang ngan pak aji punya la byk gossip dia. i get it, he miss me hehehe ngan org lain duk berlaga angin. actually ngan kita pun tgk hari dia mood ok, hah, panjang la celoteh dia. gossip politik la, makan la etc. i miss him dearly. with mummy kalu gaduh normally bengang je tapi daddy, jadi sebak. i think becoz i am quite close to him.

smlm sembang ngan SIL. sian dia nak motivated skit. susah bile duk umah mertua, tak de kawan, nk kuar kena kaut sumer anak2... been there, felt it and it is hard but at least mummy tak duk umah sgt plus dun really interfere. my MIL eventhough nowadays i can see the goodness, still the badness left some scars tht r sooo hard to forgive and forget but i love haniff, so telan je la. kita nih tua nanti tak tahu lagu mana. maybe lebih cerewet dari parent kita org mertua kita. pandai2 la pk sendiri. pastu satu lagi kita je yg boleh pujuk diri kita, tak de org lain dah. kalu nk nangis tuh nangis la tapi after tht, istifar byk2 then calm urself down.
whn i was younger, whn i have problem, wht i did was, i went to every masjid in usj (tht time duk kat usj), then selayang bila pindah umah. i was so stressed with work, love life, family, money etc. in every women's life, they will fall for a bad boy. i did, mine was three hehehe. the last one was really nightmare. malay, kelantanese and so damn proud to be drinking infront of me. wht was tht all abt? jiwa rasa tenang dgn suara azan, ayat2 al-quran... tapi sifat manusia. bila kita perlukan pertolongan DIA, kita mencari. memohon, bertanya. kenapa ujian itu jatuh pada kita. tapi bila kita ok, nak spare 5 min atas sejadah pun susah.

why i put the title "TODAY"? its becoz i have thinking all the things tht i have done, not proud and haunting me for the rest of my life. things tht i hope none of my children will do or think at of doing it.

p/s watched ironman just now, soooo totally crazy for robert downey still hehehe